pennies (2008)

i see 1960 pennies scattered on the floor
at one time, stacked.
copper with smooth edges
and stamped faces.
stacked, they formed one Penny
she stands tall
proud of the savings earned
proud of the children reared
proud with posture

i see her in the morning
before i leave,
seeking oak trees and white linen.
she stands proud
clothed only in the freckles
that cover her chests
and follow her breasts
she stands, the victor
stamping on shame
with feet strong and independent.

i see her smile,
and wave farewell until later.
and i see her face
wrinkle under needles
and loud, pressed laughter.
there are rings sinking deep in her
bloated belly and below.
crying,
"i did it so my father would love me"