summer music.

summer came today.

i could feel it in the roots of my hair.

i was warmed and

it seemed that in the sun my shield melted.

there has been a lot of driving lately

in preparation for the driving that will come.

and in driving and in listening to summer music

all of a sudden summer's emotions come flooding back.

driving route 84 east, i was not in connecticut,

but a different coastal state breathing the breeze from a different coast.

i had not thought of it with such emotion in a long while.

and i drove along,

alone this time,

with the same yearning and loss that music carried last year.

and i wanted those notes to carry you through my veins

and i don't think of it too often because emotions can be too strong,

and sometimes words fail, and i can't keep the chord long enough to satisfy.

but if i ever meet you again, i will tell you i finally understand.

the heart cannot be forced to fall in love,

even when it wants to,

even when there's a very good case to.

and, though it broke me a thousand times,

i understand.