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i hope-

i hope that you meant it.

i hope that you meant it when

you said that you forget -

when you said that the east and west

could not touch

and neither could your heart and my dust.

i am covered in dust.

i am covered in sin-dust like layers

of skin-dust scratching off with my fingernails.

i am itchy.

i am itchy from sin

get me out of this winter

get me out of this easy

get me out of this body that's covered in skin-dust

that so easily knows where to go and how to find it.

i hate it.

bathe me.

send me into the ocean

and sink me under

and pull me out and

clean me.

use oil and rose hip and

consecrate me.

i hope.

i hope that you meant it.

i hope that you still mean it,

that you still want me,

that you still mean it when you said

are faithful.