a sinner's anxious prayer.

this isn't about doing more,

acting more good.

this is about i am sick with sin

and i need you to rip out my heart

and give me your gold one

so i can be well.

so i can be healthy.

i am sick with sin and your gold heart is the only antidote.

(and come quick! i am wreaking havoc and i do not know how to stop. i do not even know how to repent. i only know how to ask so weak please give me a new gold heart and a new bone spine to walk like you do. to love like you do. my fingers and my toes have walked away even all the while my eyes were longing for you.)